I don't have anything constructive to say, except that you sound like a quite special and definitely very perceptive person. It is random meetings in meatspace with people like you seem to be (I am likely projecting, but near with me) that light up my life. That is no recognition in a public sense, and perhaps not bona fide genius either, but I'm sure that you contribute more than you realise to more people's experience than you realise.
But perhaps it's just me rambling on a Saturday night.
I do enjoy storytelling. The story above is literal truth, unlike some that I tell. The problem with drinking is that I'm more likely to share literal truth about myself than when I'm sober, when "myself" is rightly seen as a very dull topic. (How embarrassing all of this is in the morning light.)
But perhaps it's just me rambling on a Saturday night.