Deep dive on difficult work and learn as much as you can. Develop you, invest in you, that may mean working for cheap, taking a corporate job, travelling and developing a more comprehensive view of the world, whatever, for someone who knows how to scale or pursuing mentorship through working for someone who knows what they are doing.
What are your ideas? Have you validated any of them? Ideas are cheap, if you really don't care about their success or failure (which I personally doubt) you should prove it to yourself and others by sharing them widely. Hermits in a cave don't accomplish anything statistically.
A lot of people fuck around in their 20s to very little detriment, it just depends on how wealthy your parents are.
Until you are ~24 your brain isn't fully developed around risk, don't fight the science on that, just try and factor it in, emphasize developing personal skills, knowledge and communication, and get yourself exposed to as much new stuff as possible.
Create stuff, do stuff, don't get addicted to consumption or cheap dopamine, drop tv, get a computer that's terrible for video games, etc. if you are doing programming.
Just based on the internets population and the fact that this is a post. You probably aren't an outlier, you probably don't know much, you probably experience your current discomfort because the internet allows us to compare ourselves to people way outside our cohort and comparison is the thief of joy and powerful cumulative development. Imagination is always more effortlessly rewarding than the grind and difficult learning, it just doesn't DO anything. If you are of unusual talent, ability or insight you should already have some external validations or achievements of that by 21. If you don't, you may still be exceptional but just a late bloomer who needs to spend more time working and growing in the real world to better synthesize data.
"Otherwise my existence makes no sense"
Life is strange and the world has changed radically in the last 100 years, you have no idea what will be discovered or how things will change in the course of your natural lifespan. A little less desperation and a little more intellectual humility will make you a more effective, more curious and importantly, a more resilient person.
Everything regresses to the mean. Hopefully your parents are wealthy and well connected.
Deep dive on difficult work and learn as much as you can. Develop you, invest in you, that may mean working for cheap, taking a corporate job, travelling and developing a more comprehensive view of the world, whatever, for someone who knows how to scale or pursuing mentorship through working for someone who knows what they are doing.
What are your ideas? Have you validated any of them? Ideas are cheap, if you really don't care about their success or failure (which I personally doubt) you should prove it to yourself and others by sharing them widely. Hermits in a cave don't accomplish anything statistically.
A lot of people fuck around in their 20s to very little detriment, it just depends on how wealthy your parents are.
Until you are ~24 your brain isn't fully developed around risk, don't fight the science on that, just try and factor it in, emphasize developing personal skills, knowledge and communication, and get yourself exposed to as much new stuff as possible.
Create stuff, do stuff, don't get addicted to consumption or cheap dopamine, drop tv, get a computer that's terrible for video games, etc. if you are doing programming.
Just based on the internets population and the fact that this is a post. You probably aren't an outlier, you probably don't know much, you probably experience your current discomfort because the internet allows us to compare ourselves to people way outside our cohort and comparison is the thief of joy and powerful cumulative development. Imagination is always more effortlessly rewarding than the grind and difficult learning, it just doesn't DO anything. If you are of unusual talent, ability or insight you should already have some external validations or achievements of that by 21. If you don't, you may still be exceptional but just a late bloomer who needs to spend more time working and growing in the real world to better synthesize data.
"Otherwise my existence makes no sense"
Life is strange and the world has changed radically in the last 100 years, you have no idea what will be discovered or how things will change in the course of your natural lifespan. A little less desperation and a little more intellectual humility will make you a more effective, more curious and importantly, a more resilient person.
Everything regresses to the mean. Hopefully your parents are wealthy and well connected.